crazy.in.a.safe.world

很高興

2011-07-27T16:47:00.005+08:00

你有曾經刻骨銘心的深愛過嗎？也曾幻想哪天如果在街口的轉角踫到，會是怎樣的情形嗎？是轉頭落跑，還是客氣的點點頭，又或者一切盡在不言中？也許悼念一段逝去的感情最好的方法，不是遺忘，而是珍惜。回憶，是曾經擁有，不需要天長地久。用一顆感恩的心，送上最美好的祝福。

2.0 to 2.1

2011-01-03T16:52:00.002+08:00

whoooOooOoooOOSH~~

*blink blink

2010 is over. Just like that. I see lotsa ppl summing up their year. Happenings, events, moments, lessons, memories, episodes etc. What do I havta sum up? Mmm...nothing really. I like to look forward, not back. Am just gonna say that 2010 has been great, but move over now, 2011 is a whole new ride.

My only resolution this time is to get my driver's licence. Simple enough, eh?

And, stay happy, as always c:

What's yours?

waiting

2010-06-14T00:35:00.022+08:00

At some point or another, one of us is gonna have to wait for the other. I've been the one waiting for the past few months, and once I go back to flying, u'll be e one who's waiting for me to come home. People say it's hard. But maybe this togetherness-apart is what keeps us going stronger than those who has the luxury of seeing each other everyday. Maybe the time away is what makes us closer.

Well it has so far, no? =)

When I go away I'll miss you
and I will be thinking of you
every night and day just...

Promise me you'll wait for me
'cause I'll be saving all my love for you
and I will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
I'll be home, I'll be home soon~

♥

letter to my 16 yr old self

2010-05-16T00:35:00.009+08:00

dear me (yes, u!),

first things first, STOP eating. yeah i know you're seriously underweight and all but trust me, your metabolism will start slowing down and before you know it, all the buffets and suppers will come back and haunt you so please, cut back on the overeating (and try to workout if you can). and tell rayner tt he'll become fat if he doesn't stop eating too.

we're gonna be moving out this year (finally) and life is going to be different for sure, but it's what we've always wanted and it will be the best thing ever. mummy is a strong woman and she is always positive but you know, even if she doesn't show her fears it doesn't mean they're not there. life will not be easy on our own, so make it into uni and force that man to pay for it before he spends it all on his new wife.

now i know you love to sing and you really feel it in your heart you can do something with your singing. this may come as an unpleasant surprise but future us isn't a successful singer (yet) but maybe if you work harder now things can be different. try picking up an instrument and also start writing your own songs. join more competitions to get in the scene. you will be signing up for a singing course soon (yes you will), try to stand out and grab the limelight, make sure people notice your potentials and know who you are.

as for boys, you are going to meet your first boyfriend real soon. he's gonna break your heart but it's alright, you're gonna be ok. you will meet a coupla more people who will teach you many things about love and life. i wouldn't wanna ruin the surprises for you now but, just remember, sometimes you have to kiss a few frogs before you find your prince.

oh don't waste your time on those online guys, they may seem fun at first, but they're really not. you will meet nice guys, in real life. just keep your eyes open and don't jump into things too fast (unless its like a head-spinning affair in London or Paris). and know that its okay to be alone for awhile.

i won't tell you when we will finally find our prince, in fact, i don't really know if i found him yet. but i'll tell you this much: i'm very happy now. and that's what we want most isn't it?

ooh there are so many things i wanna tell you, but i gotta let you live the adventures yourself. i miss being you. but you and i are not that different, don't let that change okay?

stay happy, and know that i always love you.

see you on the other side,
me ♥

it's been awhile

2010-04-30T23:19:00.003+08:00

Wonder who still blogs nowadays. Or who still cares to read this one *winks

Been hit by the sick bug. Only consolation is I think I lost a bit of weight haha. Been doing an awful lot of thinking about my life while I'm "recuperating". Questioning myself, judging the choices I've made, evaluating how I can do better. As much as I hate to admit it, I gotta grow up. Oh that really is hard to admit.

Why can't we just stay young and carefree like we used to?

If Neverland really exists, come and get me now, Peter!

sonnet 116

2010-04-13T15:52:00.000+08:00

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Home.

2010-01-18T18:03:00.002+08:00

It's a new year again. Will this year bring better things? I sure hope so.

Everyone's been asking me about London. Did I have fun? How was my holiday? Did I not want to come home?

I had what I wanted, time with you. And I know, I now have 2 homes.

he came and gone

2009-09-22T01:18:00.004+08:00

Twas the happiest 36 days.

Now you're back in your life, and I'm here in mine. Back to 20 words a day and photo of the day.

If words and pictures are the only things we have for now, let them flow and linger. Till I'm close to you again, I promise, to be good.

♥

Time, cherished.

2009-08-18T13:20:00.006+08:00

He's here.
Though I kinda expected it, I still can't believe it.
Can't ask for more.

long range movie date

2009-08-04T15:52:00.010+08:00

♥

忍不住, 冲动.

2009-07-14T15:30:00.006+08:00

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松

忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在那个角落

疼憨人

2009-07-04T17:33:00.002+08:00

阁楼头一遭看烟火
你二话不说就走过
醒在三更懵然的我
瞥见四周盛开花朵

五分熟人儿不安妥
守在六合垸旧角落
咬下七夕遗憾一抹
苦过八月青涩瓜果

老天若只疼憨人
你为何不在身旁
傻傻将自己捆绑
误把嘲笑当奖赏

老天若会疼憨人
他是否也曾设想
幸福是为自己圆一个谎

九宫命理被谁反锁
逃不过他十指掌握
失意红颜交叉摸索
走失而兜圈的扎裹

p.s. did u notice, the song counts from 1 to 12? a surprise find from the soundtrack of 12 Lotus. *likes*

darned wordplay

2009-06-28T17:00:00.011+08:00

"Why do i feel like these conversations should be happening in paris..
but we're both hungry to know more about one another
that it can't wait..
and we're doing it now..?
I'm not complaining.. just being a little amused at myself.. about wanting to know as much of you as possible..."

~

"I don't know how you feel about me, mister.."
"And that's the beauty of this romance milady... the knowing of not knowing..."

~

"I like the ebbs and flows...
the softness of your lips that I'll never know.. the urgency of your kiss that I'll never have enough time for... the sweet lingering taste of you on my tongue... A flavor I could only imagine in encounter.
and the soft parting of a few seconds that stretch the lifetime in a heartbeat."

~

"I rather be nowhere else in the world but here talking to you sweets.."
"You say the darnedest things."
"Damned if I do, damned if i don't, damn me thrice more for being distracted by thee."

~

"If it distracts you, if thinking of me makes you smile the same way I do, If it makes you want the days to pass quicker to the the I see you again and slower when I'm with you... but not forget that your life is still yours to do as you please.
Then madame, *smiles*, I hope that I can only provide you with adequate company in Paris."

random blabber

2009-06-25T16:57:00.002+08:00

Everytime I open my blog and see my latest post, I break into song..."don't know why I didn't come..."

So I decided it's time to snap outta it.

I've also decided, to get my first tat by my next birthday. I just gotta figure out what I want.

I never understood why couples have combined couple blogs/friendster/facebook accs. Would I ever be that in love?

Here it is, (hopefully) my last roster:

3-4 manila nightstop
6-7 SEP (damn stupid, doing it only hoping I'll get called up for london during my last standby)
8 denpasar turn
9-13 paris (oui~)
17-21 london
24-25 standby
27-29 sydney

don't know why

2009-05-30T21:50:00.002+08:00

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road along

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come

Why do I think of you when I'm pissed high?

Is it really?

2009-05-24T20:37:00.007+08:00

"Cos I wanna see you this evening."

"Get ready by 10.30. I'll pick u up."

Straight to the point. Such directness. No, I'm not falling for it, though I must admit I'm such a sucker sometimes. Ha.

Why, how can I resist when, there's

you who deletes me;
you who stands by quietly;
you who doesn't ask me out;
you who joins gross groups;
you who only appears once in a blue moon;
you who doesn't give a shit;

With all the dirt out there, any whiff of fresh air makes you wanna breathe in deep :)

Then again, I'm not hard up for anything. Life is great as it is. Enjoying every minute of it. New ppl, new places and new levels of highness. Xue, u'll always be the devil who lighted my first ciggie.

the puffer fish syndrome

2009-05-12T23:03:00.001+08:00

You know how we meet so many nice guys, I mean really nice guys, but you just can't summon the feelings for them that way? No matter how hard you try, the nicer they are to you, the more you feel like kicking yourself? Is it because he's too nice? Or he's got everything except he's _____? There's always just something missing, isn't there?

How many times have you found yourself waiting on the line for that one phone call or message, excited every time your phone rings, only to see it's from Mr. Nice Guy, type a quick reply, hit delete and carry on waiting?

Why is it that, in the Buffet of Love, when surrounded by abalone, oysters, crabs and lobsters, we crave for the deadly puffer fish?

"男人不坏, 女人不爱"

bew*tch me

2009-05-10T18:40:00.006+08:00

"After one whole quart of brandy
Like a daisy, I'm awake
With no Bromo-Seltzer handy
I don't even shake

Men are not a new sensation
I've done pretty well I think
But this half-pint imitation
Put me on the blink

I'm wild again, beguiled again
A simpering, whimpering child again
Bewitched, bothered and bewildered - am I

Couldn't sleep and wouldn't sleep
When love came and told me, I shouldn't sleep
Bewitched, bothered and bewildered - am I

Lost my heart, but what of it
He is cold I agree
He can laugh, but I love it
Although the laugh's on me

I'll sing to him, each spring to him
And long, for the day when I'll cling to him
Bewitched, bothered and bewildered - am I

He's a fool and don't I know it
But a fool can have his charms
I'm in love and don't I show it
Like a babe in arms

Love's the same old sad sensation
Lately I've not slept a wink
Since this half-pint imitation
Put me on the blink

I've sinned a lot, I mean a lot
But I'm like sweet seventeen a lot
Bewitched, bothered and bewildered - am I

I'll sing to him, each spring to him
And worship the trousers that cling to him
Bewitched, bothered and bewildered - am I..."

You would think that after so many relationships, I'd have had quite enough of romance. Call me a fool but, yes, I am a hopeless romantic. The hunger to be thrilled by unexpectedness. To be charmed by wit; to be romanced by poetry; to pit fire against passion.

I'm yearning for a good love.

Does it suck more to find that the perfect guy for you doesn't exist at all? Or that he is out there but someone found him first?

turn the lights down low

2009-05-04T18:34:00.004+08:00

Had steamboat with the family on Sat.

Went Butter-ing after with Xue & guess who? Kai Huai!

Haha dude got guilty and decided to come. Collin came with his girlfriend too.

Met up with Qi Han and his friends and Chris Chen came too.

Strange group, yes, so it was a li'l weird at first. But I think Xue had fun, cos she like MIA-ed on me and left me on the dancefloor with the guys and then one by one they started diappearing and I realised I was alone. Before I was utterly loser-ised, my babe Geri came to my rescue and we had like, free flow booze at Members.

Then at 3am, we headed down to Zouk, in the rain, haha. It's always crazy clubbing with Geri. Crazy fun. For the first time, I stayed till Phuture lights on, Velvet lights on and nearly till Zouk lights on, if not for that Ron guy trying to make us drink from the bottle. I had to flee, not cos I'm chicken, but cos I gotta work in a few hours.

~

Nocé turns one tmr! Having a li'l party for her at a doggy cafe, Urban Pooch, in Balestier. Can't wait to get back home and have some doggy cake =p

Right now, I'm in Sydney Hilton's crew lounge typing away. A group of Emirates crew were here and they're a really nice bunch. Seems so much more happening than us ha.

sigh.

2009-04-30T23:37:00.002+08:00

Maybe we humans are just uncontented, unappreciative, unsound creatures.

Why does our butts always itch? Why do we look at the other end of the meadow knowing it will make us yearn for the unattainable? Why are we so good at making a fool of ourselves?

I'm easily contented. I just am discontented with many things.

darned .

2009-04-27T21:00:00.001+08:00

Why, Christina? Why do you do this to yourself?

Sigh.
.
.
.
.
.
.

You gotta learn. You have to.

speechless

2009-04-23T22:33:00.003+08:00

I am so gonna love this.

Till it happens to you

2009-04-13T15:37:00.002+08:00

I know what I said
Was heat of the moment
But there's a little truth in between the words we've spoken
Its a little late now to fix a heart that's broken
Please don't ask me where I'm going
Cause I don't know
No, I don't know anymore

It used to feel like heaven
Used to feel like May
I used to hear those violins playing heart strings like a symphony
Now they've gone away
Nobody wants to face the truth
But you won't believe what love can do
Till it happens to you
Till it happens to you

Went to the old flat
Guess I was trying to turn the clock back
How come that nothing feels the same now when I'm with you
We used to stay up all night in the kitchen
When our love was new
Oooh love, I'm a fool to believe in you
Cause I don't know
No I don't know
Anymore

It used to feel like heaven
It used to feel like May
I used to hear those violins playing heart strings like a symphony
Now they've gone away
Nobody wants to know the truth
Until their heart's broken
Don't you dare tell them
What you think to do
Till they get over
You can only learn these things
From experience
When you get older
I just wish that someone would have told me

unexpected bliss

2009-04-12T07:15:00.007+08:00

Back from one of my best 4-sectors flight. The crew were all nice and easy going. We went clubbing in Lan Kwai Fong, ktv, and I went to Alcatraz for a superb audio tour. Best part of the flight was meeting Navjot, an Indian stewardess from Delhi, who's super energetic and fun loving. And she's as crazy about shoes as me. She wanted to check out our local clubs so I brought her to the new Butter Factory for some heavy duty partying.

My new friend, Mr. Chow Xing Xing came along for some warm buttery fun.

I can't believe how many ppl I bumped into that night man. First there was Aleste, whom I met outside the washroom at the same time I found Natalie.

Met his friend, Dennis, whose tie was very popular with the ladies that night.

Then I saw Tey, who was with a groupful of pretty girls, which made Aleste and Dennis very happy.

When I went to the washroom again I saw Taufik Batisah, who looked like he's gain a li'l bit of weight, but whatever, so on my way back into the club I saw Li and gang. Once back inside I saw Philip and his cousin, Frederick, and then I saw Cindy.

Finally when we were leaving, I caught sight of Choong!

Unexpected reunions rock.

All in all, it was an awesome night. Thanks guys!

~

Stanley organised a BBQ on Sat, I had no idea it was my Post-Birthday celebration haha. They surprised me with the cutest strawberry cake...

This year my birthday's bigger than CNY, apparently. From my Pre-Bday bash on the 18th, to my Ozzie tour, to the BBQ, it has lasted for a grand total of 3 weeks haha. How am I gonna top that next year man?

i ♥ ozzie

2009-03-31T23:32:00.003+08:00

I had a wicked time in Ozzie. It was amazing. I don't think I've ever laughed that much and that hard before. Looking thru the photos now still makes me smile like an idiot =)

Sydney was relaxing - wining, dining and chilling with good company. It was especially nice to catch up with my dear Laura. It's been awhile since we hung out just the two of us and I really missed that. Seeing how happy she was with Kevin, wow, true love do exist. I couldn't be happier for them. And I can really see myself hanging out at their home years from now, decades even, with their 4 beautiful kids running around the pool :)

They brought me to so many nice foodie places I was stuffed to my neck by the time I left for Brisbane, haha. And I was really enjoying travelling alone ya know. It was, well, liberating.

Sunny Brissy was a blast. We were camwhoring like nobody's business (we took at least 1000 photos with all the cameras combined), and the guys took turns to cook for me every single day. Awww...thanks guys, this is seriously the most home made food I've had in my life.

We laughed at almost everything, well, mostly at ourselves haha. It was like someone turned our laugh-o-meters up to the max. Every little stupid thing we did was fun, and every clever comment would lead to an insane string of wisecracks that sets off uncontrollable cackles. It was surreal.

Can you believe that at 11pm we decided to ditch the original idea of clubbing, went home to change and set off at 2am to catch the sunrise at Byron Bay? I started playing all sorts of silly games with Lester (JL & Ter's roomie and driver for the night) to keep him awake. But it was so engaging that everyone ended up playing and no one slept! Haha.

After the magnificent sunrise, we dragged our sleepy asses to Surfer's Paradise for some beachy fun, AND bargain-shopped at Harbour Town before heading back home for my last dinner in Brissy. That's one hellavu crazy weekend man. Too bad we missed Earth Hour. We could've fulfilled it if we hadn't left the wireless router on.

I'm so glad I decided to spend my birthday with you awesome peeps. It doesn't get any better than this. Thanks for making it so special. I love you guys so, so much~

how true, how true...

2009-03-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

How to recognise an Aries

Aries is the first sign of the zodiac. It represents birth, as Pisces represents death and consciousness of the soul. The ram is conscious only of himself. He's the infant of the zodiac - the newborn baby - completely absorbed with his own toes and fingers. His needs come first. An infant doesn't care whether or not his parents or the neighbors are sleeping. When he's hungry or wet, he yowls in discomfort. He wants his bottle, and he wants his diaper changed now, and don't be pokey about it. When the Aries person has an idea or something he wants to get off his mind, he'll call you at four in the morning without a qualm. Why shouldn't you be awake to listen to him? He's awake. That's all that counts. He wants something. He gets it.

Like the infant, Aries is concerned with the world only as it relates to himself. But who could call the small baby truly selfish? He's perfectly willing to lavish his smiles and favors on those who satisfy his demands. It's hard to resist a baby, because he's so totally unaware that he's causing anyone the slightest inconvenience. So it is with the ram. His innocence hangs over him and mellows his aggressiveness, like the innocence of the newborn softens his egocentricity.

This disarming naivete is also why Aries people are so fearless. The baby fears nothing and no one, until he gets burned. Even then, he'll trustingly try again, when he's forgotten the hurt. There's not a trace of cunning wile in the ram, and he'll remain this way throughout his lifetime; forever believing with all his heart, always falling down and getting up again to try once more. Any doubts he collects along the way are immediately displaced by the next person who's kind to him, just as the baby forgets the pain of the safety pin that accidentally stuck in his leg the next time someone sprinkles the powder.

The ram can make believe from here to tomorrow, and spin fabulous dreams, but he can't lie worth a tinker. What you see before you is what he is. There's nothing hidden or complicated about him. He's just as vulnerable as the baby, and just as helpless. When stronger, more mature people force him or take things away from him, he reacts in the only manner he knows - yelling and causing so much disturbance, that people give in just to get peace. He doesn't need "delicate strategy", lung power and self-absorbed determination suffice beautifully to allow him to get his way. Perhaps helpless is not the right word. Vulnerable, yes, but helpless, no.

The Mars-ruled person will look you straight in the eye, with unabashed honesty and rather touching faith. You're his friend, aren't you? You like him, don't you? No? Then the tears will start, but inside. He'll never show it on the surface, if he can help it. If you see him openly weeping, you can be certain that he's been cut to the very soul in some way. Aries would rather be caught dead than be caught weak - and some of them literally risk the former to avoid the latter.

The ram will seldom glance nervously around the room. When he does, he's no longer interested in talking with you. Something else has caught his attention, and for the moment, you are forgotten. So is what you're saying. Don't be offended. Remember the baby and his toes and fingers.

The ARIES Woman

"But aren't you going to run and help her?" Alice asked.
"No use, no use!" said the King. "She runs so fearfully quick you might as well try to catch a Bandersnatch!"

So if you're in love with an Aries girl, I don't know whether to congratulate you or sympathize with you.

When Byron wrote that "Man's love is of man's life a thing apart; 'tis woman's whole existence," he forgot about the Aries woman. She may think love is her whole existence, but she's too vitally absorbed in the world around her, not to mention in herself, for it to be the beginning and end of her life. She can get along without a man easier than any female you'll ever meet.

Of course, getting along without a man is not the same thing as getting along without romance. She'll always need that hero of her dreams to yearn for in her heart. He may be long ago and faraway, or hiding just out of sight and touch, somewhere in tomorrow's mists, but she'll think about him in an April rain. He'll haunt her when the first snow falls, when she hears a certain song or sees lightning flash. However, while she's yearning, if there's no male around in actual physical presence, she won't miss him terribly. Anything he could do, she can do better, she thinks.

The Aries girl will open her own doors. Shell also put on her own coat, fight her own battles, pull out her own chair, hail her taxi and light her cigarette without any masculine help. Doing it herself is, to her, the fastest way to get it done. Naturally, this doesn't set too well on the vulnerable male ego. The Mars girl is determined to take the lead, to be the first to move to action, and that includes the action of making the first advance in romance. Aries females are the most likely of all the Sun signs to do the proposing, especially if the man is slow about naming the date. And that's about as early as you can safely show your feelings - when she proposes. Before that you're taking a chance. Be very careful about moving in on an Aries girl. She wants to be the leader in the love affair. Better be sure you have her heart safely in your pocket before you try to grab her around the waist and kiss her goodnight. Otherwise, she may give you a sharp right hook to the jaw and run like a frightened deer.

Don't be misled. The reason for her running isn't maidenly modesty. She's not afraid of your passionate intentions. Those she can handle. Her flight is based on the fear of getting tangled up with a worshiping slave or a lovestruck puppy dog, either one of whom would bore her to tears. Be casual, keep her guessing, and the chances are she'll chase you into a comer instead. A man who resists her impact always intrigues an Aries female. She can't understand why she isn't overwhelming him with her obvious charms. Then her Mars ego will leave no stone unturned to prove she's desirable, even when she has no lasting interest in him.

Scariett O'Hara is the very epitome of the Mars-ruled Aries female. Like Scariett, the Aries girl will gather every available male for a hundred miles around to her feet, while her willful heart yearns for the one man she can't have for one reason or another. Like Scariett, the Mars woman can quickly adapt for survival if necessary, without whimpering. Both the O'Hara and the Aries characters are tough enough to defy convention, face an advancing army, or even shoot a man through the head with icy calmness, if he threatens her loved ones.

Never was Scariett more Mars-like than when she was starving, alone and friendless, and without waiting for a man to come to the rescue, she clenched her fist toward heaven and shouted, "I'll survive this . . . and when I do, I'll never be hungry again... If I have to lie, cheat, steal or kill, as God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again!" Much later, her emotions shattered, her beloved child dead and the one man she loved about to walk out of her life, this typical Aries woman was still able to say, "I'll think of some way to get him back. There's never been a man I couldn't get, once I set my mind on him. . . . After all, tomorrow is another day."

Yes, Scarlett O'Hara creates a vivid image of the first Sun sign of the zodiac, with all the Mars strength and ability to bounce back after tragedy, able to play the female role to the hilt, with fluttering lashes and a well-timed tear, but just as able to take over a man's job when the men aren't around. A careful study of Scarlett's character can give you an excellent understanding of what you're in for with an Aries woman. And naturally, also the rewards you can look forward to after you've been brave enough to claim her. Her aggressive drive may be hard to take, but her shining optimism and faith in tomorrow can be mighty uplifting.

The Aries girl is rather a pushover for flattery, if it has an honest base. Let her know you admire her, but don't be too flowery or sugary about it. Her loyalty in love is gigantic, as long as you keep the sentiment alive, for she is deeply sentimental. There's the typical Arien contradiction in her: she doesn't want to be obviously chased, yet she quickly loses interest if you're too detached. She doesn't want a completely domineering male, but neither will she warm up to a man who sits adoringly at her feet.

Before love can bring her happiness, the Aries woman must meet the eternal Mars challenge - her strong desire to control the lover, conflicting with her secret wish to be controlled by him. Unbelievably idealistic, sometimes she searches in vain for that brave knight in shining armor, who will sweep her off her feet, conquer the world, hand it to her gently and yet never sacrifice his manhood. Since he exists only in fairy tales and the myths of King Arthur's court, the Aries woman often walks alone, without a star to guide her. Her days are bright and full of excitement, her nights are sometimes dark and full of longing. Yet, when her defeated dreams become smoldering ashes - just as you think the flame is dying, Aries leaps up to build another fire.

She must be proud of you to love you. But don't be so important that you neglect to notice her talents and abilities. Though she'll demand a lot from you, she'll give double measure in return. The Aries girl can be generous to a fault with her time and sympathy, cheerfully sharing her possessions and money, but when it comes to love, she's downright stingy. "What's hers is hers" in the romance department, and it will take very little to set off a jealous explosion. Don't admire your favorite movie actress in her hearing, or pay too many compliments to her girl friends. The man with an Aries wife is safer with a male secretary. If she's not first with you in every way, you'll soon wonder where all the intense passion and thrilling emotion went so fast. When the Aries woman has been really hurt, she turns from fire to ice. Her fire bums hot and dies quickly. Her ice can be eternal. Memorize that, if you care deeply about her - and it's doubtful that she'll stand for you caring about her any other way. Aries plays for keeps.

She puts the loved one on a pedestal, expecting him to live up to an impossible image of perfection, stubbornly refusing to look at his clay feet, until they become too muddy for even her to miss. Never criticize the lover, husband or children of an Aries woman unless you're wearing an asbestos suit. She's capable of being demanding, selfish, and making cutting remarks when you dampen her hopeful plans. Yet, she can also be gentle, devoted and cooperative when she's met halfway.

Since she prefers the company of men to women, and solicits admiration from every male she meets, be he nine or ninety, you'll have plenty of chances to feel the stabs of those little green monsters of jealousy. Forget it. As fiercely possessive as she is of you, she won't put up with your possessiveness of her for an instant. The Aries girl insists on complete freedom, before and after marriage. You'll have to trust her wherever she goes and whatever she does, though she won't have that kind of faith in you (unless she's learned the hard way to keep her emotions under control if it kills her, which it almost will).

It's not as bad as it sounds, because she'll be faithful, once she's really yours. An Aries girl is seldom able to love two men at the same time. She's simply too honest for such deception. Barring unusual circumstances, she'll let you know clearly that love is dead before going ahead in total commitment to someone else.

This woman is capable of deep passion and mystical idealism, woven together in strange patterns. In any relationship she feels is real and forever after, there will be no holding back, no feminine wiles, coquettish tricks or silly games. Her love, like her speech and actions, is direct. There's something clean and fresh about the utter simplicity of her emotions, but even so, they often get her into waters way over her head. You may have to tame her a little, but she'll accept It with surprising docility if she really loves you.

Mars females are often career girls. They can handle almost any profession a man can handle, from stockbroking to real estate. They can also turn a nice ankle or profile in strictly feminine occupations like modeling and acting. It may be difficult to get her to give up her job for you, if it's a real career or profession. She may toss it overboard for a period, while she's suffused with the glow of romance and picturing a storybook cottage for two beside the sea (typical of the Arien imagination that leads straight to the happy part and ignores the dull part). But when the cottage begins to need a paint job, the roof starts to leak and the first fine rapture dims slightly, she may be anxious to dig out her social security card again. Let her. She'll be far happier and more loving - even more gentle - if she's allowed to fill her idle hours with something that interests her. Mars emotions, unfulfilled, can look for molehills of frustrations to build into huge mountains of trouble.

There's practically nothing this woman won't tackle. If it's a challenge or just something she thinks she wants to brighten her life, she'll make some kind of a stab at it whether it's practical or not. I know an Aries woman who was forced for financial reasons to live for several years in two rooms with a husband, five active children and a dog. That kind of an arrangement can get a little cramped, and just contemplating it might give a woman with any common sense a few doubts. Not a Mars female. This one coped somehow, though she may have let it goad her into a few tantrums.

In the middle of the situation, when an astrologer read her natal chart and pointed out that her planetary aspects showed a long period of great hardship in her life, she was puzzled and intrigued. "When does it look like it might happen?" she wanted to know.

This same impulsive Aries woman got a sudden urge one day to add another dog to the group camping out in two rooms. She felt the family's male pet needed a female companion. He looked lonesome. Besides, the children thought it was a rollicking good idea. The discovery that the second dog wasn't housebroken threw her only temporarily. Like a determined drill sergeant, she assigned every member of the family their turn at scrubbing the carpet. After she saw that it would never be the same again, she surveyed the situation and made a decision. To get rid of the second dog? Of course not. She was secretly hoping there would be puppies someday soon. The money would just have to come from somewhere to get a new rug. Funny thing - it did.

As for the puppies, she was sure some miracle would happen to move the entire crowd into a new apartment before the happy event. Funny thing - it did. Miracles have a way of happening to those who believe in them. Aries women certainly believe. Sometimes to the point of foolishness. Her rash ways can get her into some complicated pickles, and she may have a few gray hairs before she learns how to avoid the same pickle twice. Aries is not noted for learning from experience. The spirit is willing, but the disposition is headstrong. There's no use to try to caution a typical Aries female with the biblical warning, "Pride goeth before a fall." Her interpretation of the phrase, since she first heard it in Sunday School, is "When your pride goes, you fall."

Never worry that your Aries girl will succumb to the charms of a wolf. She's immune to wolves and playboys, and in far more danger of being seduced by an idealist with a cause, preferably a lost cause. But even with him, she'll assert her individuality frequently. It will never be completely conquered in the Mars woman, though it can be subdued by the right man. She'll buy you gifts, loan you money, nurse you through illness, and help you get a job. And she'll expect the same from you.

She'll deny it vehemently (she does almost everything vehemently), but when she's miserable, you should be miserable. When she's happy, you should be happy. To Aries, love is equal sharing. She'll expect to share your razor, your bank account, your friendships and your dreams. In return, you can share hers. Of course, her razor may be broken, her bank account a little overdrawn, her friendships slightly scattered and her dreams too large for you to swallow. But she's not selfish with them. Keeping a secret from her can drive her wild, and it's not a good idea to drive an Aries wild. Don't ever embarrass her by your grammar, clothing or behavior in public. She won't embarrass you, at least not in these matters.

To injure her pride or dampen her enthusiasm will almost break her heart. Others will constantly be doing just that to her. The world resents a female who talks back to it, and who thinks she's smarter than everyone else. When she discovers she really doesn't run the universe after all, she'll come running into your arms in tears, her world all dark and dismal. Then you'll have a chance to see her as she really is, defenseless and vulnerable in the extreme, for all her outer confidence. She's not really Tugboat Annie. She'd just like to be. She admires strength and tries to imitate it.

The Aries idealism and optimistic faith in human nature is often dashed to bits by reality. Comfort her with tenderness at these times, and you'll probably never lose her. Always defend her against her enemies. She can never forgive you if you fail to fight for her or take her side. (But be prepared to make up with them when she does, which may be quickly.) At least she's layabout it. She'll also defend you. An Aries woman will throw away fame or fortune defiantly right in the face of anyone who hurts a friend of hers. If she loves you, her indignation will have no bounds. These women are nothing if not loyal.

As a wife, she may be quite a handful. There will probably be outside interests, because home will seldom be enough for her creative energies. Don't expect her to be a happy little cricket, chirping away contentedly by the hearth. She'll be a competent enough cook, and she'll keep the house spanking clean - at least the part that shows. She'll sew on buttons and iron shirts, too, but she won’t like it. Still, she'll do it when it's necessary. (An Aries woman can do almost anything when it's necessary.) Her fire is more like that of a glittering diamond than like the warm, comforting glow of the fireplace.

There's undeniably brittle side to her nature, and she may agitate you more often that she soothes you. But she's exciting and certainly ever boring. Then there are always those moments of softness that belies her strong drive for a man who has the patience to bring them out. Mars women are always softer inside than any but those who have been really close to them will ever know. Her conversation will be very intelligent and very frequent. Don't hide behind the newspaper at breakfast. She'll expect companionship from you, or you can just scramble your own eggs.

You'll rarely find her complaining of illness or fatigue. But when she's in pain, she'll expect tons of sympathy. Although you may have to sit on her to get her to go to bed when she has a raging fever, be prepared to wait on her hand and foot when she has a toothache.

This is not the woman to call and tell you'll be working late at the office, unless you enjoy creating Fourth of July fireworks in the middle of February. She won't mind keeping the gravy hot, but she won't like not knowing where you really are, and what you're really doing, and she may call back to find out. The Aries wife will probably make an excellent impression on your boss, if you can keep her from telling him how to run his business. She won't mind going out to bring home the bacon when you're temporarily out of a job, but she can never respect a man who makes less money than she does (though an Aries woman would never leave a man for this reason - she'd be more inclined to make excuses for him).

If she has a rare spell of letting herself go, the first word of disapproval from you will send her flying back to the mirror and perfume bottle. (In this way, she's as feminine as Eve herself.) A flattering comment about your secretary's new hair style will do the same thing, but it's more dangerous. Besides, you were warned to hire a male secretary. There's a vain streak in a Mars woman which makes her sensitive about everything from her age to an innocent remark about how tired she looks, which she may take as a hint that you think she looks like an old hag.

Keep the passion and romance alive in your marriage, or she'll be miserably unhappy. Aries will waste little time changing any situation which causes unhappiness, and that can lead to a hasty separation or an impulsive divorce. In most cases, letting her handle the family checkbook would be unwise, but you can try it, if the bank is game.

As a mother, she'll see that the baby is clean, happy, healthy and loved. She probably won't pick him up every time he cries, fuss over him or overprotect him. But her children will get lots of warm, impulsive kisses and bear hugs. An Aries mother will teach her youngsters to believe in leprechauns. She'll take them for walks in the park, and point out the sparkling necklaces left on the lawn by the fairies when they danced under the moon where others might see only the early morning dew on the grass. Aries women create a magic world of fantasy for their children. It's where they live themselves. She won't be a permissive parent, she'll insist on strict discipline, and will probably be very fortunate in raising her offspring to be independent adults. Her favorite weapons of child psychology are: a wooden paddle, bedtime stories and goodnight kisses.

This woman can be unreasonably temperamental, and create some violent scenes. But her quickly aroused temper will splatter like summer hailstones and soon melt away. She'll never hold a grudge, seek revenge, indulge in self-pity or bitterness. After an emotional storm, her optimistic, Aries nature will return like the rainbow suddenly appearing after a shower. Lots of people will tell you an Aries woman is completely masculine, but don't you believe them. She's all woman underneath her flashing, forceful exterior, perhaps too much woman for the average man. But, of course, a knight in shining armor isn't an average man. Are there any lonely, courageous knights out there? This is the fair lady of your dreams, worth all the dragons you'll have to slay to win her.

Don't forget that she bruises easily, in spite of her bright, brave smile. (That's just her shield against hurt.) If you can turn the ram into a lamb, you'll have a woman who is honest and passionate, loyal and exciting-though she may be a little impulsive, bossy and independent. Well, you can't have everything, you know. The Aries girl will help you find your lost illusions and she'll have a fierce faith in all your dreams. You don't have any? Borrow some of hers. She has plenty to spare. If you believe in her just half as much as she believes in you, you could make some miracles together.

Check out your horoscope: http://tarotmastershimure.blogspot.com/search/label/ASTROLOGY%20ARIES and see if it's as true for you.

my birthday resolution

2009-03-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

1. To lose at least 5kg in 3 months

2. To not be distracted by unnecessary drama

3. To write more music

4. To focus on the essentials

5. To be the best I can be within my ability

notes to self

2009-03-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

1. “If a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a s--- it’s because he doesn’t give a s---.”

2. "If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will."

3. "Don’t get tricked into asking him out. If he likes you, he’ll do the asking."

4. "Just because you like to lead doesn’t mean he wants to dance. Some traditions are born of nature and last through time for a reason."

5. "“We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you.”

From the movie, "He Just Not That Into You". Actually we do know these rules, but we choose to be blinded sometimes, don't we? But babe, some risks are not worth taking. Finally, I'll close with my most memorable quote from the book:

You've already got one asshole, you don't need another.

i ♥ my vagina

2009-03-10T21:25:00.011+08:00

To all my girlfriends, you must take some time out to watch this video. It's so awakening and powerful and I hope it will inspire you the way it inspired me.

Vagina, vagina, vagina, it's not the sexiest word in the dictionary, yet its the centre of my body and the core of my sexual being. Embrace it, understand it, love it.

happy 21st ali!

2009-03-02T13:08:00.010+08:00

Can't believed i survived yesterday. Right after Shitney 232, rushed home to shower and change, remove and put on my makeup again, then off to Sentosa. But it was worth it seeing my babes so happy. Was nice finally meeting her guy, Marcus, who was a really nice guy and seemingly a romantic buff in love. Lucky you, girl! You've got the whole world in your hands, don't cha? Ha, real happy for you.

It's strange how in one evening, in one room, i saw so many different kinds of love. Sweet puppy love, understated love, endearing love, love lost and unrequited. I have to admit i was feeling kinda, well, one kind. But like a passing dark cloud, i know i will see my rainbow one day.

Thanks for showing me some love when i needed it most.

what r the odds man?

2009-02-27T16:50:00.005+08:00

Bumped into Lucky the other day. He was with a colleague, Cindy, whom he bumped into also. They happened to have both their phones dead and was so glad to see me cos they can borrow my phone. And guess what? My phone's low batt too haha. But it could survive a few msgs. Guess Lucky's always lucky hehe. What are the odds of 3 random ppl bumping into each other and all 3 phone's dead or dying? The best part is, Cindy turned out to be my Pri Sch mate! My first Pri Sch to be exact, Fuhua Pri, which I attended for 4 yrs before transferring to JPS. Seriously, WHAT ARE THE ODDS MAN?!

Cindy, the girl with the amazing memory

~

Had a great dins+girl talk session with my girls last night. Whether we like it or not, life has indeed changed and we have indeed been forced to grow up. Damn.

星期六深夜

2009-02-24T16:50:00.004+08:00

星期六晚上哪都不想去也无法入睡
看着电视机持续在发呆喝了七分醉
闭上了眼睛试着不想你但已来不及

忘了如何让眼泪停止流下
还好没人看见没人会说话

星期六深夜我想起了你
没什么特别只是回忆
你让我自由我很感激
星期六深夜
永远不会有任何人能代替你

这就是遗憾的滋味
陪着我形影不离
明天我会面带微笑
但无法忘记你

永远不会有任何人能代替你

♥

I know it's not exactly Saturday but it feels like one. Gonna be meeting my girl Xiaobai later, bringing her to Om @ Haji Lane for dins & then we're gonna catch "He's just not that into you" with Bronz & Dom. Yay.

Heard some shocking news when we finally met up last wed for Ter's farewell (yet again). Love is such a torture device. But babe, want you to know that whatever you wanna do, we're always gonna be here, whether you like it or not. Thru bitching and hitching, till dentures do we part. ;p

My ticket to Sydney is confirmed. So is my interline to Brissy. Imma taking my first solo holiday~!

outta-this-world fun

2009-02-15T20:49:00.013+08:00

I had the best time with a buncha strangers ever. Can't think of a better place and crowd to have celebrated Vday with man. With gourmet BBQ specially prepared and cooked by a New York based Chef, noodle soup Indo Mee (yeah we were too lazy to drain and the Chef was not here yet), vodka infused (and also purely vodka) shisha, lotsa booze, chinese lanterns, lightsticks, heart shaped balloons (that's probably the only valentine-ish thing we had on the island), bigass campfire, $10 hammocks (that make u feel fat cos it slowly sinks to the ground), and loads of energy and enthusiasm, how can it not be awesome?

Chef Aaron Goh JJ working his secret herb butter on the scallops

Super yummy pasta

Yes the food is friggin outta this world man

Best BBQ chicken wings ever

Nasty sishas - one infused with vodka, one "neat"

Our campfire

This weekend opened my eyes so much. Thanks for the good one~ ♥

down the rabbit hole

2009-02-13T12:38:00.004+08:00

"You take the red pill, and you'll wake up tomorrow and not remember anything. You take the blue pill, and you'll see just how deep the rabbit hole goes..." ~ Morpheus, The Matrix

Been a whirlwind week. Meeting people, having fun, partying, drinking, singing, wining and dining...I've never been more exhausted! But I'm glad I slowed down for not one, but two very sweet home cooked delish to recharge me for the final lap.

Too bad I only took photo of one. Panfried linguine with sliced beef, a li'l fusion, nice all the same =) My 2nd free meal was a spread of luncheon meat, hotdogs, steamed eggs with crab meat and wanton soup - homely goodness~

Next up, the perfect climax to end off my leave - camp out at Ubin with a buncha really cool peeps. It's gonna be awesome, and maybe even legendary hah.

I feel like my luck is changing. In fact I feel like my whole world is changing. How sweet, this epiphany. It's like a whirly-twirly-tumberly-curly fall down the rabbit hole and I don't wanna find out how deep it goes just yet~

Girls night out

2009-02-09T22:07:00.007+08:00

Night out with my sweets was an adventure.

We had pizza for dinner and then headed to Rebel, which my "discount card" got me free entry. The place haven't changed much since Smoove, the "cage" concept still remains. But we felt so overaged there! Ha. That place is brimming with teenagers man. After downing our free drinks we headed to Bellini Grande and met up with Skye who brought us in. And in here, we feel underaged haha! The crowd was a mix of expats and over thirties.

We bought a jug of vodka cranberry and positioned ourselves at the best seats in the house, high above the crowd, overlooking the whole club.

And then xiaobai spotted a target haha. That dumdum, we stared at him the whole time and he didn't make any move. What an idiot. While we were busy staring, and while i was trying to get xiaobai to go up to the guy, a Santa-lookalike Welsh guy approached us and commented that he's noticed we haven't been dancing all night. So I told him we will once we're drunk enough. And the next thing we know...

Did I mention the jugs at Bellini are hugeass? We barely drank half of our first jug and here comes another, courtesy of Santa. We were downing them so fast that I admit it got to me a little. So guess what, I went up to the guy xiaobai was eyeing!

Me, "Hi, are you attached?"
Him, "Er, no."
Me, "Are you gay?"
Him, "No!"
Me, "My friend over there has been looking at you all night and she's too shy to come over. Can I get your number for her?"
Him, "Sure."

And that's that. Won't this make a great story at their wedding? Haha oops, I'm ahead of myself. After high-5ing Santa, we went to the washroom, came back and gulped downed as much as we can of the drinks, and sneaked outta the place haha!

T'was a sinful night indeed~

知己

2009-02-07T18:43:00.001+08:00

还好变成了知已
起码随时看到你
哭泣或欢天喜地
可以陪你

让这个故事继续
结局我们都如此好奇
肯定可以一起有惊喜
魔力或奇迹
让它随意上映

可惜不能靠得太近
但仍心存感激
好散好聚我们都庆幸
一时很难去解释
这样微妙的距离
也许我们都很满意

感情是我们一向来
很尊重的事情
现在就紧紧的
维系彼此关系
长大了也许对于某种
感动的东西
一点点都珍惜

还好变成了知已
起码随时看到你
哭泣或欢天喜地
可以陪你

是没有差到哪里
相处的还算和气
就差那一句
我爱你

可惜不能靠得太近
但仍心存感激
好散好聚我们都庆幸
一时很难去解释
这样微妙的距离
也许我们都很满意

感情是我们一向来
很尊重的事情
现在就紧紧的
维系彼此关系
长大了也许对于某种
感动的东西
一点都珍惜
都得来不易
比如像你

divorced

2009-02-02T00:10:00.006+08:00

Me and my couple-coded Yee Ling got divorced today. After almost 3 weeks together, I don't know how I'm gonna face my next flight alone. I'll miss you~

As for You, I do miss you. More than I'd prefer. I do something and I'm reminded of you. I see something and I think of you. I learn something I thought you'd like I'd wanna share it with you. As I've always said, you're a cruel joke my karma's playing on me, ha.

Talk about moments that can change everything. I never truly understood until now.

When I got whiskey all over my friggin face and burning my eyes, when the world stopped and you weren't there, I knew.

When you turn around and walked away, I knew.

When you replied with silence and answered with voicemail, I knew.

Guess that's my cue.

P.S. (to my karma) since it's not funny anymore, can we pls hit reset?

happenings (chronologically backwards)

2009-01-20T12:29:00.024+08:00

As much as I said I'll never step inside again, I entered one of my least favourite places with one of my very favourite persons for a midnight rendesvous =)

"Lock the door behind me!" He said, making it sound sooooo dangerous. Haha, but it is la, I got robbed before, remember?

Danga Bay, sorta like the Fisherman's Village equivalent

The unplugged performance was pretty good

I think it's my first time coming all the way here for western finger food

2 sleepyheads waiting at the Budget Terminal

~

Thanks to my "singing friend" jolyn, who is now a trainee broker, I got to watch Red Cliff 2 in Gold Class complete with free food+drinks, AND yummy Crystal Jade dinner! So much for leeching off your friends haha. I got to finally meet her new boyfriend, Wayne, who was a polished young man well above his peers.

After dinner we headed to Clarke Quay for drinks, where I had an interesting conversation with Bobby from Scotland (shucks, forgot to snap a pic with the nice old man). Then it was off to Helipad for Bubblez!

The songstress turned broker

The power couple

Wayne's friend, Lauren, a Korean-American who has the coolest job - working for himself

Cheers!

~

Met up with another one of my favourite people, my dearie kaiwen. It's been a whole year since we last met & we've got loads to catch up on.

Had yummy udon at Liang Court and caught up with the happily married fiona. Our gossiping prowess has proven to withstand the test of time! Haha, it was so much fun just talking with these 2. Later on it was our ritual ktv session.

My very first singing partner since we were 11!

Then we met up with the rest - ter, xiaobai, ah pa liang, and roy, for dinner + drinking. Ah pa liang insisted we go to Pump Room to see his Fat Lady and so as good children, we did. And he arranged a surprise bday gag for roy!

Roy looked so comfortable on stage

Then we headed to The Arena, highly recommended by xiaobai. And xue er came to join us. The music & live band was good, but the crowd sucked. Still we had fun, jing jang style. Heh.

Approximately every 2 years, by some twist of Fate, the 3 of us would somehow manage to meet up.

13 long years and counting. Can't believe we knew each other when we were all 11 yr old kids in sch uniform! Joshua must be the only guy I know now who ever saw me in a pinafore!

Thank you people, what will life be without u guys?

~

2009-01-14T22:18:00.001+08:00

你和我就算了吗
别用沉默代替回答
陌生得让我害怕
心像被针扎了一下

总是不提那句话
我想你是故意装傻
不是不懂得表达
还在等什么说清楚吧

我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重
我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由

终于明白那句话
爱能让人一夜长大
不成熟的感情啊
让我变得小心害怕

我和你就算了吧
不想再为爱而挣扎
爱情若没有火花
至少了解后懂得放下

我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重
我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由~

alone again, ever so naturally.

2009-01-13T00:35:00.005+08:00

There's a secret path I follow
To a place no one can find
Where I meet my perfect someone
I've kept hidden in my mind
Where my heart makes my decisions
'Till my dream becomes a vision
And the love I feel
Makes him real someday

'Cause I know he's out there somewhere
Just beyond my reach
Though I've never really touched him
Or ever heard him speak
Though we've never been together
We've never been apart
No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart

Am I living in an illusion?
Wanting something I can't see
If I compromise, I'd be living lies
Pretending love's not meant to be
'Cause I know my heart's worth saving
And I know that he'll be waiting
So I'll hold on and I'll stay strong 'till then

'Cause I know he's out there somewhere
Just beyond my reach
Though I've never really touched him
Or ever heard him speak
Though we've never been together
We've never been apart

No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart
No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart

If I were a boy

2009-01-03T00:04:00.003+08:00

I always thought that if I had the chance to choose, I'd still wanna be a girl. I'd still wanna dress up, make pretty, enjoy bimbotic moments with my girls, be over-sensitive, emotional, & a crazy bitch. You see, it's so much more fun being a girl.

But what kinda guy do I wanna be if I had the chance? I'd be romantic for sure, conjuring li'l surprises for my girl every now and then, I'll tell myself I'm courting her everyday cos I want her to enjoy the feeling of being courted by me and only me. I'd respect her like a lady and adore her like a baby. I'd listen to her every word carefully and take note of all the details. I'd make her feel like she's the most special person to me even though I have other important people in my life. I'd balance my time with her and my friends and her friends. I'd probably be the perfect guy. Ha.

-------

One year has passed and gone. Any regrets? Many. My new year resolution is the same every year - to be happier than before. (And to shake off some weight ;p)

What's yours?

all i really want

2009-01-02T23:56:00.003+08:00

Do I stress you out
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker

And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around
Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need now is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice...

staying put

2008-12-13T01:14:00.005+08:00

It's weird to see the pool of friends you collected over the years, those who shared the same era of pagars, tamagotchi, tamagotchi pagars, "steads", mIRC, icq, 7 months of "holiday" waiting for poly to start, procrastinating projects, crashing for exams...suddenly split up into very different crossroads.

I see some gettin married, planning to get married, planning to never get married, balloting for HDB, having babies, planning to have more babies...yeah I'm very happy for them, excited even. But to think of myself doing the same, it's just plain scary.

Are we really there already?

It seems to me like the world around me is rushing towards there while I'm still all the way over here.

And...I think I'm gonna stay put for awhile.
It's nice over here, no?

sleigh bells ring, are u listening?

2008-12-07T23:41:00.005+08:00

24th of December, Swissotel Merchant Court.

Kickass double double plus room at super super good price. Thanks to my new DBS Black.

The guys are in charge of the poultry & mixers. The girls, starch & snacks.

We gonna par-tay.

P.S Surprisingly this year, the guys are very much participative & psyched. What happened to my girls? Are we losing our X'mas spirits?

jus doin some research

2008-12-05T02:17:00.005+08:00

彭羚 - 给我爱过的男孩们

戴上钻石戒指说我们愿意
这刹那看着这小玩意
衷心跟过去说谢谢不让你知
这个故事引子有个女孩立下大志
赶快道别童稚然後趁青春好好恋爱一次

至此爱过数次有过段段逸事
亦有一些灿烂处似本恋爱杂志闲时
总算还可以回味那幕幕旧事在暗中自娱

我倾慕过的牵挂过的伤害过的挣扎过的
谨将这首歌献上给我从前每个男孩如盛放的花朵
想像过的得到过的等待过的失去过的
祝我幸福快乐也冀盼每一个都好像我

当作过渡也好趁最爱还未到
到处爱爱吧我不信月老
好不好试过了日後都是瑰宝
当作锻炼也好爱错也能日後上诉
恋爱若没难度甜蜜与温馨都不希冀得到

至少爱过数次有过段段逸事
亦有一些灿烂处似本恋爱杂志闲时
总算还可以回味那幕幕旧事在暗中自娱

我倾慕过的牵挂过的伤害过的挣扎过的
谨将这首歌献上给我从前每个男孩如盛放的花朵
想像过的得到过的等待过的失去过的
祝我幸福快乐也冀盼每一个都好像我

那不愉快的不算差的不後悔的不结果的
谨将这首歌向每一个男孩致意从前陪着我一样傻
不实际的不见光的不便说的不记得的
祝我幸福快乐我爱过每一个
请保佑我~

It's in Cantonese so don't expect to understand it fully easily. But the general gist of it is so meaningful. Not so crazy about the melody though, think I'm gonna try giving it a nicer tune.

i'll be home for x'mas

2008-12-02T23:47:00.002+08:00

I'm dreamin' tonight of a place I love
Even more then I usually do
And although I know it's a long road back
I promise you

I'll be home for Christmas
You can count on me
Please have snow and mistletoe
And presents under the tree
Christmas Eve will find me
Where the love light beams
I'll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams~

There's nothing like when X'mas is near. Everyone gets all hyped up with the festivities, shopping for fabulous gifts, and most of all, counting down to a day of get-together. X'mas is my favourite holiday 'cos nothing beats meeting up with the ones I love and having a nice, warm X'mas dinner with them, exchanging specially prepared presents, and being grateful for another good year spent.

I really thank my lucky stars I managed to get the off days (and a good deal at that). So pls don't disappoint me, people.

kyan's kickass birthday surprise

2008-11-23T22:23:00.003+08:00

Watch the tearjerker slide show here...

http://www.slide.com/r/C8yq-nnf7z8qo-Zh4O55ACDMszZYfAKz?view=original

say hello to e newest member of e jjgang!

2008-11-20T06:15:00.011+08:00

This Eileen is really a shocker. She shocked us when she turned up at Xiaobai's bday a married woman. Then Sheen bumped into her with a huge baby bump. Then now, before we can rush to rub her tummy, she's a proud mummy of a beautiful baby girl. And if that's not enough, the new mummy had a shockingly short labour of only half an hour! She looks so glowingly radiant after that you can't tell she's gone through labour at all.

So the sweetest little thing, weighing at a healthy 2.8kg, entered our lives yesterday morning.

Mummy Eileen wanted to give her a name starting with "P" cos daddy's name is Peter. And so we helped to come up with "Prystal", "Penelope", "Pherlyn" and we especially liked "Paige Elizabeth Lee", which has both mummy and daddy's initials. But all is up to the new parents. Enjoy the photos for now.

After visiting the Lees we left for dinner and hopped into a Maxi cab together for the first time! Haha! Prepare for some mountain tortoise camwhoring...

"miss"

2008-11-18T17:24:00.008+08:00

Just watched a Miriam Yeung and Eason Chan movie "Hooked on You" on tv. A bittersweet romantic comedy which has a slightly different twist and feel compared to the other movies of its genre. I like that it opens with an interesting definition of the word "miss" and closes with a subtle reprisal of the word. Gave me a newfound insight to this everyday word. Never occured to me that it is such an ironic word in itself. To miss something or somebody is such sorrow yet we often use "I miss you" in the sweetest context. Remember in the SNTC movie SJP actually discovered in her research that "I miss you" is the most commonly used phrase in the greatest love letters of all time instead of "I love you"?

The best part is that "miss" also refers to the courtesy title for both an unmarried woman or a girl. Ah, the irony.

2008-11-11T08:12:00.006+08:00

Man, I don't know which time zone I'm stuck on 'cos I've been freaking up all night long. And it's crazy how my creative juices really flow at such ungodly hours. Look what I've done...

Nice? You gotta enlarge it to see it properly.

New roster's out. Thankfully I've got both London and Hkg-Frisco. But not so thankfully, I'll be spending X'mas in Hkg. And even less thankfully, you will be in Taipei. Guess it's another lonely X'mas this year. Oh well, I'll have our Genting weekender to tide me through, and March to look forward to. ♥

memoirs of a geisha

2008-11-01T12:40:00.011+08:00

31.10.08 Halloween

Tricks

the crowd at dbl o was massive beyond believe
the que for baggage stretched all the way to the toilet
when faced with the monster que was asked "then how do u think i can help you?"
the table was my home most of the night
partying with a 16 yr-old
the bouncer almost came to stop the guys from smoking in the dark corner
the dance floor was utterly impenetrable
the temperature was burning (thank goodness i got my fan)
staying sober the whole night
a certain disappearing pantomime act
getting my fingers painfully twisted
getting my toes crushed
watching you crush someone else' toes
simply watching

Treats

both sylz & i got in free with our costumes
jaygie got in looking like himself
someone mistook raphael for the door bitch
we got a cool big red table
watching the crazy ex-commandos drink straight outta the martell bottles
watching them clean off almost 2 bottles neat
watching jaygie get high
a pantomime red-lipped smooch
my fan won "best prop of the night"
partying with almost-strangers can be kinda fun
especially watching them make a fool of themselves
such as eating the real poison apple

I wish next year will be better.

"Adversity is like a strong wind. It tears away from us all the things that cannot be torn, so that we see ourselves as we really are."

it's about time

2008-10-22T05:11:00.004+08:00

In a few hrs, I will finally set foot in Penang.
In a few days, I will finally shop in KLCC.
In a few more days, I will finally revisit Genting since I was 2.

After living right next to them for 23 years,
After travelling around the globe,

Well it's about bloody time.

c'est la vie

2008-10-17T00:45:00.002+08:00

Paris was beautiful. But being there with a guy that's not you, its heart-wrenching. I wish, upon the Eiffel Tower stars, that I will get to share the magic of Paris with that someone special some day.

wants

2008-10-09T23:12:00.004+08:00

Finally uploaded my Cairo and Milan pics on Facebook. Tmr I'm off to Paris! Wieeeeee~

And after that it's my annual leave again. Ten days of unplanned goodness.

I want to...

get my first Chanel
have dinner at Nobu
try the 70++ Marina Mandarin buffet
get a pedicure
go for more hot yoga
have a nice holiday with you

for you, a thousand times over

2008-09-18T23:22:00.004+08:00

Pls pls pls go watch "The Kite Runner". It is a "other side of the story" movie that will really set you thinking. The young actors are so endearing ok! I love them! Especially Hassan, his undying loyalty to Amir is just amazing. The other amazing thing is the whole movie's shot in China, where there's a whole Muslim community complete with Mosques and architecture that's the closest to '70s Afghanistan you can find now.

And after you watch it, go to http://www.takepart.com/.

Unconditional love, loyalty, trust - simple things that are so lack of in our troubled world.

"There is a way to be good again."

I really hope there is.

lazy bug strikes again

2008-09-15T03:21:00.008+08:00

I'm too lazy to upload my Milan & Cairo pics yet *bleah*

I've finished season one of both Cashmere Mafia and Lipstick Jungle and I still can't decide which I like better. The only thing I can say is they can't replace SATC no matter what. And now I'm hooked on "Dirty Sexy Money".

Notes to self:

I must stop being a TV junkie.
I need to get my nails done (my itchy fingers peeled off the gel inlay and now my nails look sick)
I need to go for my hot yoga
I need to practice my keyboard
I need to train Noce for more tricks (she can do "hand" and "jump" and sometimes, when we're lucky, "sit")
I need to plan a nice getaway
I need to send my Acer for servicing before the warranty's up
God, I also need to get down to writing some new songs

Why does it seem like I've got all the time in the world but nothing's done? I hate myself right now.

On top of that, I'm having trouble sleeping again. My eyes are half open but my mind just keeps running. And the humming of your breathing just serves as a quiet mockery of my awakeness. I miss the days when I can doze off and drift off to lalaland till the most natural time to wake up. Or were there ever those days? I really can't remember the last time I slept like that. Dreamless, deep, restful. Sleep.

"You're just like your father. You want fairy tale love. You're a romantic but what's really romantic is to wake up every morning and say 'I choose you, again. Today. No matter what'."
- Lititia Darling

"And so Karen, Freddy, I send you off into the mystery of marriage with three words that start with the letter C. First, Confirmation. Married people provide confirmation for each other. When one person sees a shooting star or an aurora, then they have someone to turn to all the time, to whom to which to say 'Did you see that? Did that really happen?' And in a life that's full of amazing moments, it's important to have confirmation. The second is Consolation. Married people provide consolation for each other. When bad luck, death, or even the simple sadness of the passing of beauty becomes hard to make it go on, then you have someone to turn to for a hand, for an embrace, for a kiss, for consolation. And last but not least, there's joy. (mumbling from the guests) It's not a C word but then life and love are surprising. You may kiss the bride."
- Brian Darling

"I didn't marry a Darling for nothing." - Ellen Darling

"When I grow up, I'm going to live like this. No matter what it takes. No matter what." - Kiki George

made it

2008-09-10T17:55:00.003+08:00

I did it. I survived doing 2 long flights a day. Going to see the pyramids tmr. I can't believe I'm finally here. This is like so one of the "1000 places to see before I die".

Cairo is, well, sad to say, dusty. Seriously, you can see the sand and dust in the air. The city is engulfed in a murky orange-yellow. The weather is really dry and hot. Now I know how the desert's supposed to feel like (the last time I was in the Middle East it was winter and shockingly cool).

Well, gotta rest now. Long hot day of sightseeing and camwhoring tmr.

怪胎

2008-09-04T14:30:00.003+08:00

他们说我很怪
尤其对于爱
老犯错太沉默
老是学不乖
才开始就像逃跑
从来不问未来
像个贪玩的小孩

他们说谈恋爱
是一种负载
很甜蜜很花钱
很需要忍耐
可是孤单要人命
没有人能例外
得跟命运摊牌

天知道有多累爱我这种人
没错你快些离开
也许真的是你欠我的债
偏偏你不信赖

为什么喜欢我我这种怪胎
像原始人活在新时代
外表叛逆但心不坏
不轻易恋爱
我相信永远不存在
别爱上我我这种怪胎
我的人生一路在修改
我说爱情是海底针
真心很难买
忘了我让我一个人
自由自在

Changes, how dreadful

2008-08-31T14:42:00.004+08:00

I hate changes. I'm doing Milan instead of Paris and I'm complaining, why? 'Cos I gotta do Cairo the same night of my arrival back from Milan. Ok I should stop whining.

But I was so looking forward to doing Paris with Zen! It feels good knowing you will see a familiar face. And I think I'll die from doing 2 long flights back to back. But oh well, the silver lining is that I'll be on leave after that so I can recuperate.

Going Shanghai tmr, the exact same flight I changed for Cairo, haha how cool is that? Now I get to buy my dvd and cheap toiletries AND still get to see the Pyramids. Yipee =)

Oh, oh! I got my first compliment letter yesterday! From an indian pax whom I served later than everyone else, gave the wrong meal, and made use of to do translation. Yeah, it's a long and unbelievable story that led to an unexpected long, handwritten compliment letter. But who cares as long as the ending's good eh?

I feel much happier now~

Question now is, am I going to Sydney alone on the 13th? What am I gonna do here if I don't go? What shall I do for my long 5 days off? What am I gonna do for the Oct leave?

I need my hot yoga, need to sweat it all out.

Housekeeping

2008-08-28T16:52:00.017+08:00

Time to dust off the cobwebs! Haha. I just went on holiday to Saigon with the 925 gang and I'm going on leave again in Sept, whoohoo~

Having fun "paxing" together.

Yeeling's (who came in st8 after her HKG turn) welcome party

We visited a lacquer artwork workshop. The Vietnamese are so talented, creating beautiful artwork from eggshells, mother of pearl, lacquer and their skillful hands.

Our crazy game on the long bus ride

More crazy photos on Facebook. It was a fun trip, looking forward to our next one!

I've got a brag-worthy roster this time. Heading to Paris next week, followed by Cairo, and then my leave, which I'm planning to visit laura in Aussie. After that I'm doing Taipei-LA, working up and paxing back, sweet~ Best part is, I touchdown after midnight so I get an extra day off, and the rostering ppl gave me a hidden off day before my next flight, so in total I'm off from 27th Sept till 1st Oct, a whole 5 days! How great is that?

Just when you thought it can't get any better, we realise Ah Del's sis is on his highness' Amsterdam flight, which gives us high hopes of doing that flight together. *fingers and toes crossed*

Happy, I must be. No more unnecessary grumpiness, I must try.

Thanks for putting up with me dear ♥

The Princess Diary

2008-07-12T10:59:00.015+08:00

ˡnoce (italian) n. feminine
nut, walnut, nut of the walnut tree.

noce moscata nutmeg.
noce pecan pecan.
di legno di noce chestnut.

noce (french) n. feminine
wedding ceremony, nuptials

~

Meet Her Royal Cuteness Princess Noce (say no-shay, not no-ci)~

Born 5th of May, she was exactly 2 mths old when we brought her home. But just as she was settling nicely into her new home, we noticed her coughing quite frequently so we had to take her back to the pet farm. She's been there for nearly a week, my poor baby. But the guy at the farm said she's doing fine, he just wants to keep her there a while longer to observe her and make sure she's fully strong and healthy before she comes home. What a responsible fella, though we all agreed he looks a tad bit menacing and not very friendly, haha.

We all miss her so much. Even though she's only been here for a weekend, we already feel an attachment to the li'l fur ball. Everytime we walk past her play pen, we look longingly at her "spot". How could you possibly not miss such an adorable face?

Looking forward to bringing her home soon. Her new chew toys and puppy treats are waiting for her. Oh god, I miss her chubby ass!

When you're happy and you know it

2008-06-22T16:24:00.005+08:00

It's funny how when you're sad, words come pouring out. But when you're happy, you can't seem to find the words ♥

Rome was beautiful. The sky so blue, the clouds so fluffy. Only thing missing was you.

But to fill up the void of missing you, a trip to the Prada outlet is not a shabby alternative ;p

Melbourne was filled with pleasant surprises. Met up with a whole buncha mass commies I haven't seen since graduation. Everyone's so warm and it was nice to get together again, though it's weird that we only got to gather when we're miles away from home. Well that's the beauty of life, you never know where it takes you. Catching up with the gang made me realised how these people whom I've envied at being able to afford an expensive education abroad, actually had their fair share of hardship. The new life they have made me see the life I have. Seeing how they've grown made me see how much I've grown too. And it really got me thinking..

We tend to forget the simple things that make us smile when we were little. How a bar of chocolate or a popsicle can brighten our entire day. How the promise of a trip to the zoo can make us happy for the rest of the week. How picking up a lucky penny could make us feel like the luckiest person. How getting the toy we want out of those spinning machines make us squeal with delight. How a stranger's wink or funny face can make us giggle with glee.

Did we forget to stop and let the kid inside us take charge? Stop, my dear friends, take a breather, and just enjoy yourself. Maybe then we'll stop chasing the 'not enough's and appreciate the things we already have.

So when you're happy and you know it, throw your hands up the air and let your heart beam.

I got carried away

2008-06-03T03:45:00.008+08:00

My all-time favourite Carrie quotes.

"Coulda, woulda, shoulda."

"Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies."

"I am someone who is looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love."

"The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."

"Now that's a good closet."

"And they lived happily ever after. You know, that doesn't always happen in real life. I just thought you should know that now."

Do you believe in happily-ever-afters? Or rather, can we?

As always, Carrie never fails to inspire me to google something. But this time it's more than just a bag or a shoe, it's a collection of love letters from the 18th century.

Excerpt from Napoleon’s love letter to Josephine:
“I have not spent a day without loving you; I have not spent a night without embracing you; I have not so much as drunk a single cup of tea without cursing the pride and ambition which force me to remain separated from the moving spirit of my life.”

Apart from being a musical genius, Beethoven was also a man hopelessly in love:
“Though still in bed my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us. I can live only wholly with you or not at all—yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home, send my soul enwrapped to you into the land of spirits.”

I have one too, thanks to y♥u. All the way from halfway across the globe. You sulked that you didn't get any. So here it is, from me to you:

I am missing something. Something I kept for as long as I can remember. I don't know how, I don't know when. But it's no longer where it's always been. I feel it still, in the mornings, when I see your face. I feel it tingle when I'm hours away from you. And I miss it most when you're far away. I know it can come back to me any day but for now, please. Please take good care of it.

"Ever thine,
Ever mine,
Ever ours."
- Beethoven thru Mr. Big

sugar-coated

2008-05-24T19:46:00.019+08:00

Just received Daniel's invite to his birthday bash. It's sucha cheery piece of work I feel I must share it.

Looking forward to it! I pray my standby before that won't disrupt my off day.

His sweetness got up extra early after Man U's exhilirating win to make me a full english breakfast. Photo's in his camera but the sweetness is in here deep deep ♥.

I met this stewardess on a Taipei flight and other than discovering we got a whole buncha common friends, she also shared with me her miracle love story. We kept in contact thru msn and the happy bride-to-be just showed me her super-diabetically-sweet wedding photos. Here's my personal favourite. Love the candid-ness and the traditional outfits.

As none of my close friends are near marriage yet, it's pretty new and exciting to hear all about it. Guess talking about gorgeous dresses and dreamy wedding plans will bring out the girlie girl in all of us. Well here's wishing the happy couple all the happiness in the world.

The bride asked me when's my turn. No, me thinks, I'm not so 'lucky'. Haha.

All this lovey-dovey business propels me to search for this wonderful song that has been playing in my head.

"I wanna grow old with you," he whispers.

♥blush♥

love notes

2008-05-17T22:48:00.010+08:00

Love notes on the wall of Romeo & Juliet~

His love notes~

Her reply~

I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

Clueless in Frankfurt

2008-05-07T23:40:00.006+08:00

It's my third time in Frankfurt. The weather's beautiful, only thing missing is you by my side. I went for a quick visit to my "temples" - Prada, Gucci, Chanel, and of course, my good ol' friend Louis. But I didn't make any "donations" today! I've been a good girl. Bought a small Longchamp though, the lilac colour is gonna be phased out soon so I figured I shouldn't think about it anymore.

Went into Tiffany's and saw the Notes ring. It's really pretty. 150 euros. And they have it in my size. The sales person kept tempting me by saying they only have one of each size available. BUT I didn't. *pat myself on my back*

I'm saving money because I gotta buy not one, but TWO big pressies for someone. All because I lost at a lousy game of dai dee. Actually, that would make it a grand total of three, if you include the one in Beijing. So poor me gotta scrimp on myself and splurge on that someone this trip. *hmf*

Going New York very early tomorrow. It's almost midnight back home now but only 5.40pm here. My body is confused whether it's sleepy or not. Haha. I can't wait to check outta here though. They gave me a bigass suite-like room, complete with 2 bathrooms, a dining table, book shelf, cd player and a kickass plasma TV! The catch is, the room's so freakin' big it's freakin' me out a little. And last night the bathroom lights just went out on their own, and came on again on their own. Hopefully tonight will be uneventful.

Really wish you were here. God, I miss you so much. I don't know if it's the long distance thing, if it's 'cos you only miss what you can't get enough of? Or could this possibly be the crazy-ridiculous-can't-live-without-each-other kinda thing we were dreaming about back then in school?

I really have no clue. You make me clueless. Hate u.

"Parting is such sweet sorrow. That I shall say good night till it be morrow."

咳~

2008-05-06T00:15:00.005+08:00

我为什么那么爱你
爱到什么都说可以
发誓绝不做的事情
现在做的不想放弃
爱情到底让人脆弱
还是让人坚定

Collide.

2008-04-22T20:04:00.015+08:00

Sadness. 2 days off and he's far away in Auckland. The only thing that can cheer me up now is ...online "window" shopping! Haha. It's the best. Free of charge and in the comfort of my own home. How therapeutic~

I think it's time to get myself some new bling.

Eeeny-meeny-mineey-mo... ;p

Always wanted to get myself my 2nd diamond ring. I'm l♥ving the Baguette Cut.

So clean cut and classic. I like that it's not as common as the Princess or Brilliant Cut.

And how can the bagaholic in me not look at the gorgeous new bags this season? Behold, the new limited edition Prada Fairy Bags. 2 words - I want.

But I read that the ink bleeds when in contact with water. That's not good. As if that matters to me. By the time I can afford it it's probably out of stock anyway.

On a much, much happier note, I received your heart in the mail today. I'm glad you didn't leave it in San Francisco. =)

Something else for us to look forward to...

2nd - 4th May. Beijing.

It's one in six thousand. Of all people. You and I. Collide. ♥

我忘记了当时有没有被祝福
许多事情都已经模糊
如果爱你真的是我一时的糊涂
我宁愿这辈子都糊涂

你把当时的细节记得很清楚
我们都有同样的感触
没人知道我们能走到什么地步
幸福还是一个未知数

我不在乎你也许是一个游牧民族
还不知道会在哪里停住
我不害怕世界比想像中孤独
我不在乎就算梦想可能会被耽误
至少我的心一直有温度
我知道我就住在你灵魂深处
我很清楚~

疯了

2008-04-17T12:08:00.003+08:00

疯了.

连脚趾头都在想你...

that thing you do...

2008-04-10T23:52:00.006+08:00

I don't know what it is that makes me love you so
I only know I never wanna let you go
'Cos you've started something oh, can't you see?
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me
It happens to be true
I only wanna be with you

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do
I wanna spend each moment of the day with you
Oh, look what has happened with just one kiss
I never knew that I could be in love like this
It's crazy but it's true
I only wanna be with you

You stopped and smiled at me
And asked me if I'd care to dance
I fell into your open arms
And I didn't stand a chance
Now listen, honey
I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we're together, honey, I don't care
'Cos you've started something, oh, can't you see?
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me
No matter what you do
I only wanna be with you

No matter what you do
I only wanna be with you~

i'm an april's fool

2008-04-01T16:02:00.002+08:00

Wise men say, only fools rush in. But I just can't help it. *blush*

"I will try my best to keep it at 120% for as long as I can."

happy silly

2008-03-29T14:19:00.007+08:00

Once again, thanks to all those who made it for my party. Thanks for the love, you guys. I know I can always count on you all to have a great time, and I must say I had The best time ever. Though you gave me a concoction so foul and so potent that I can't remember half of what happened haha.

Big hugs to the jing jang girls for their ingenius stunt! I was already very touched by the pink balloons, pink cups, pink hearts and stars that you prepared for my pink party. But what happened in that bathroom is just outta this world. Yes, a buncha drunken girls in a tiny bathroom...I will not tell you what happened haha. Honestly, I cannot recall how it happened and what exactly happened. I only know it was a whirlwind of laughter, tears (mine, of course), and shock. But that, my dears, is a fantastic feeling. I can't wait to see the photos man.

Thanks for all the wonderful gifts. When I say I don't need anything, I just want your presence, I really mean it. Just being there to gimme my birthday hug is good enough for me. But on top of that, you guys got me carefully picked out (i hope) pressies and I'm really grateful to be loved by you like that.

Special thanks to my dear laura, for surprising me with beautiful pink flowers. Thanks sweetie, I really really appreciate it. And also my oldest fren, kaiwen, for calling me all the way from Brisbane.

But the best present of all is you. Yes, you. You know who you are.

P/S Yanyan just showed me videos of the "making of" process of my banner. Thankew xue er! I didn't know you worked so hard for it. I don't know what to say. I'm really, really blessed to have a friend like you, girl. I *heart* all my girlies.

he said, she said

2008-03-20T15:16:00.009+08:00

她说，“你为什么什么都随便？”
他说，“随便啊，只要你开心就好。”

---
He said, "I really hope you appreciate it."
She said, "I do."

---
她说，“你的手不会累啊？”
他说，“不会，是值得的。”

---
他说，“真的太神奇了。”
她说，“嗯。”

---
She said, "If you got things to do then it's really ok."
He said, "I've got things to do, I need to call you."

---
She said, "Why do I have to wait one more day than you?"
He said, "Cos, maybe I miss you more so I get to wait less."

tourist-ing

2008-03-15T05:36:00.017+08:00

It's my last night in Copenhagen. Can't wait to get back home. It's been raining almost non-stop here, I hope the sun's back in sg.

Yesterday we went to the town square and guess where we ended up at? The Museum Erotica. Haha. I didn't go to the one in Amsterdam so didn't mind checking it out. It was an eye opener man. Did you know that Charlie Chaplin liked to describe himself as a teapot - small body, huge spout? And he likes to deflower virgins and marry underage girls, girls as young as 12 yrs old. And the great Marilyn Monroe was raped at 9 by a foster father and she claimed that although she led a colourful life, she never truly loved. And the Playboy story is one of true genius.

Today we spent the entire day sight-seeing. Sore legs, burnt pocket (admission tix here is not cheap), one worthwhile trip. I might never ever come to Denmark again so I must see as much I possibly can in one day.

First stop is of course, the famous little mermaid. We took the train and walked in the rain to seek her out. And despite what I heard, she didn't disappoint. She's beautiful in her understated way. The sorrow of a love that was never owned, embodied in her eternal yearning.

Then we moved on to the Queen's palace. We arrived just in time to see the change of guards parade. Complete with marching band and furry hats.

And then we went to the Rosenburg Castle, which was supposed to be the old King's castle. Sounds grand right? It was surprisingly small. The garden was much more impressive.

Then we headed back to the town square and went to the Ripley's Believe it or Not and Hans Christian Andersen Museum. Really interesting. Saw some reeeeally weird stuff. Like the model of the world's tallest man, a video of a man who can regurgitate an 8-ball and another man who can stick a dentist drill into his nose. Eeeew.

Alrighty, time for bed.

the sweetest thing

2008-03-14T09:17:00.003+08:00

get Carried away

2008-03-12T14:03:00.007+08:00

The countdown begins! Just watched the teaser trailer and it's so, so promising. I simply l♥ve l♥ve l♥ve this show. Is there anything else more fabulous than that?

Big: "Shall we get you a diamond?"
Carrie: "No, just get me a reeeally big closet."

You go, girl.

On a different note altogether, the past week had been a blast. A whirl of perpetual high, bad karaoke-ing, crazy footloose and even mini dramas. Not to mention 'Truth & Drink'. Best game ever. I think I haven't slept so little in a long time. But I'm not complaining. No, not at all. *smilez*

If only

2008-03-09T14:03:00.004+08:00

Heard Beyonce singing this live on teevee. Such a nice song. And she sang it with such emotion, the whole stadium was captivated. If only one day I could sing like that.

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle, yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfections
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need.

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you

This is why I love SATC

2008-02-21T07:39:00.004+08:00

Carrie: The longer I sat at that table, the more alone I felt and it really hit me. I am 35 and alone.

Miranda: You are not alone.

Carrie: I know I have you guys. Really, I hate myself a little for saying this, but, it felt really sad not to have a man in my life who cares about me. No special guy to wish me happy birthday. No goddamn soul mate. I don't even know if i believe in soul mates.

Charlotte: Don't laugh at me but, maybe we could be each other's soul mates. And then we could let men be just these great, nice guys to have fun with.

Samantha: Well, that sounds like a plan.

...

Carrie: As Big's car drove away, I realised, having 3 soul mates already nailed down, made it a lot easier to spot these great, nice guys to have fun with.

This is an excerpt from an episode I just saw, think it'll become one of my favourite episodes. Carrie had the worst birthday party ever but it turned out to be one of her most enlightening moments. Talk about silver linings. Make me wish I had my soul mates nailed down too. Do I, girls?

Something to smile about...

"陶吉吉在大雨中洒脱放声，她在细雨里轻轻哼唱。不一样的感觉。"

always a day away

2008-02-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

Snow skiing was waaay cool. Will definitely show pictures soon. Gonna perm my hair tomorrow. Yes I know, I said I was gonna wait for Japan. But I can't wait. Anyway my LSS who's getting married soon is doing her hair here in Seoul too so I trust the bride-to-be.

"Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya, tomorrow. You're always a day away."

Road trip ahead

2008-02-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

I'm heading for Whistler Mountain in like 10mins time. Just had to pen down this memorable moment. Gonna try and snow ski. And maybe build my very first snowman. I feel cold already. Brrrr~

alone again, naturally.

2008-02-04T13:26:00.000+08:00

爱你很好真的很好
你知道什么是我想要
当被你拥抱
我甚至想不出有什么是我所缺少

早餐做好衬衫烫好
让我看来是你的骄傲
你从不吵闹
但是这安静的生活使我想逃

想看远一些想走远一点
我不甘心就这样让一切停下来
假装这是所谓的永远

也许我是将风溶解在血中的女子
也许我是天生习惯自私
你用温柔和真挚
面对我在爱里放肆的样子
也许我是将风溶解在血中的女子
也许我是天生崇拜追逐
当你将疑虑装得若无其事
请原谅我
像风一样的女子

Sorry 呀
其实我一直都係度等你开口问我
我哋之间嘅关系
到底算吾算係一种爱
抑或只系一种生活嘅依赖
我知道我好自私
但係我真係好想再出去睇多D
Sorry

burnt pocket

2008-01-17T15:27:00.000+08:00

'Nuff said.

Frankfurt-New York was great. You would have thought I'd be eating frankfurters all day, but instead I was eating pasta and spinach. I only had one hotdog throughout my entire trip. This is the so-called famous mushroom sauce spinach that many of the crew are addicted to.

I honestly don't get the hype. It's nice but it just tastes, well, like spinach. The Mac's was cute, with cute red trays and odd sized cups.

Also tried another supposedly famous dish, crispy duck.

But it was more like soggy duck cos the walk back to the hotel was long and we forgot to tell the chef to separate the sauce. The vege, as you can see, is an overkill.

Met Aunt Jasie in NYC and she showed me around the city.

5th avenue, Madison, Times Square, Broadway...I felt like I was in Sex and the City man. Walking along the streets and taking in the sights and sounds...coolness. The next time I'm there, I must make sure I book tickets to catch a Broadway musical.

She has a salon there and I got a free haircut.

It was like x'mas all over again. Aunt Jasie gave me her old Bvlgari watch, an antique watch, a silver Coach coin purse and insisted on paying half of my Marc Jacobs oversized sunnies. I also bought a white Guess sling bag. Didn't buy any clothes though. The thought of taking off all the layers and putting them on again just puts me off trying anything on.

But the best part of NYC is Asia, Aunt Jasie's yorkie. She's soooooooo super uber cute.

Isn't she adorable? She's the tiniest, cutest yorkie ever. Oh I miss her already.

In Frankfurt I also bought myself a new pair of silver Birkenstocks with bling (and not to mention the speedy). Now that's enough shopping for awhile.

Baghag i am

2008-01-02T14:45:00.000+08:00

Happy 2008 everyone. I countdown in Bangkok. But it isn't as exciting as it sounds. Basically I touchdown at about 7pm on NYE, reached the hotel at about 8pm, bought thai silk shoe bags and pouches in diff shapes and sizes from Naraya and went for a 2hr thai massage which cost me only $17 at 11pm. Was half asleep during the strike of midnight, the most relaxing countdown ever man. It would have been much nicer if I didn't have to report for duty at like 5am. Spent the first day of 2008 with Mr Perfect straight after touchdown. Met up with the jing jang gang at night. That's like 36hrs straight without sleep, minus the snoozing during the massage. What a way to start the new year.

---

One of my favourite things to do when I really have nothing better to do is to browse thru my favourite brands online. And read about the history of the brand, the making of a classic, the stories of the designers, or simply just to dream about owning them all one day. After much clicking and careful consideration, I've come up with my wishlist for 2008.

Kate Spade Jane Street Passport Ticket Holder
It's champagne gold with hot pink inset, need me say more?

Marc Jacobs Quilted Little Stam Bag also known as “The Kid”
The Kid features all of the original Stam’s characteristics, but in a smaller, more delectable size. The top sports a gusseted frame with an oversized kiss lock closure, just like its big sister. As well as the quilted metallic grained leather, golden brass hardware, and a removable chunky chain link shoulder strap. A cute purse that can bring you from day to evening without being unnoticed.

Miu Miu Coffer Bag
This lovely bag boasts a lovely braided leather strap, ruched base and lovely gold hardware. And did I mention its made in super soft Nappa leather? It also comes with a shoulder strap so you can sling it across the shoulder for a more casual look. Versatile. I like.

Loewe
I love the Loewe emblem, four intertwined L's engraved in fire. Their designs are simple, classic and functional. This Spanish luxury house hailed as Madrid's answer to Chanel is a must-have. I'm loving the Amazona, Nappa Aire and the Loewe line. Eeeny-mineey-wieeny-mo...

And of course, speaking of which, the one and only Mademoiselle Coco Chanel. I don't need to post the classic 2.55 cos it's already such a classic it needs no introduction. So instead I'll post this gorgeous poster of the beautiful Keira Knightley. Don't think the TVC can outshine Nicole Kidman's Chanel N5 ad at all cos Baz Luhrmann is just too good, but this poster sure proves Knightley worthy as the face of Chanel.

I'll close this post with an interesting article I read. 10 leading designers have lent their trademark looks and created these cute little thingies called Be@rbricks for the Hong Kong Blood Cancer Foundation in the name of charity. The "Love is Big, Love is Be@rbrick" campaign includes brands like Chanel, Coach, Hermès, Hogan, Missoni, Moschino, Paul Smith and Tod's. No prizes for guessing which Be@rbrick is my fav.

Merry X'mas eve

2007-12-24T14:30:00.000+08:00

In Abu Dhabi now, this place isn't all that bad really. Gigantic houses, tall buildings, very cosmopolitan. Except that the men here give you the weird looks haha. I'm lucky the crew is super nice and we're going out for lunch later (it's only 10.30am here btw) and tonight the hotel has a special X'mas dinner arranged for us. But nothing beats spending X'mas back home. So I just gotta stroke my gorgeous new Agnes B. wallet (Mr Perfect and I exchanged gifts early) and count down to fri. *emo moment*

On a happier note, my new roster's out and I'm pretty psyched.

Jan
14-16 Off (dinner at Ruth's on the 15th)
17-19 Melb (dunno if laura's back there by then)
21-22 Seoul
24-30 Dubai-Istanbul

Feb
3 KL turn
5-6 Hkg
8-14 Seoul-Vancouver

So I'll be around for CNY which is on 7th Feb, and on the 14th I'll be touching down in the afternoon. Kinda makes up for missing X'mas and New Year. Now I just gotta keep my toes and fingers crossed for my birthday.

Merry X'mas to all close to my heart. I'll see you all soon.

ho ho ho~

2007-12-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

Packing to go off to Abu Dhabi. But I've got 2 big consolations - meeting Ah Keong for dinner on my last night there and our much awaited x'mas-cum-new-year-potluck-party on Sat. It's gonna be spectacular.

For the record, I've got a bottle of Malibu and Bailey's. And I'll get a champagne on my way back so we can 'pop' to our beautiful lives! So I've pretty much covered the drinks, will ask Mr Perfect to grab some pineapple juice and milk. Sorry, no soft drinks will be served, haha. But we've got chilled tap water if you don't mind.

I've asked the Jing Jang Gang to be in charge of the turkey and ham. Suggested Laura and Kev to get some sushi or fried rice (and Nic). Protein and carbs, checked.

Can someone pls donate some plastic cups and paper plates? As well as ideas for after-dinner entertainment.

So here's the lodown:
Where? Blk 163, Yung Ping Road, #13-84
When? 29th Dec 07, 6.30pm
Who? Only the awesomest people in town

Text me if you need to confirm anything, don't call me unless you're willing to pay for my roaming :)

Can't wait to gather under the x'mas tree with the people I love.

cookies and screams

2007-12-19T11:06:00.000+08:00

I love love love my new skin! Ain't it cute? I've always loved Cookie more than Elmo, cos he's the imperfect one who's doomed to be called a monster just cos he's got an innocent cookie addiction. Better than people who try so hard to show they're perfect or think they actually are (no offence, Elm).

Am activated for my first Standby, going to be in Perth tmr. That will almost complete my collection of aussie flts. Still no luck for Brisbane. I wanna meet my dear Kaiwen there! I miss that girl. Wonder how she's doing.

Met some other ppl I've been missing. Hamster Ali and Best Trainee Ah Zhong came all the way down to the airport to meet me after my flt yesterday. We had a good chat as we explored the new Terminal 3. It's so big and nice ok. I tell you, Singapore is soooo determined to build the best airport that they're going aaaall out.

Finally going to give my poor overworked hair a treat at the salon later. It's gonna be oh-so-good.

yum yum

2007-12-16T14:05:00.000+08:00

I wanna eat taiwan porridge and oh-ah-mee-suah at this yummy looking place!

http://www.hungrygowhere.com/new_taiwan_porridge_restaurant

And then after that I wanna go chill out and sip yummy martinis on comfy daybeds at this place!

http://www.martinifirm.com/

Any takers??

hamsterdam

2007-12-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

Hello from Hamsterdam! It's so freezingly cold here, plus its raining. Hopefully we can still go see the infamous Red Light District later on. It's like 8am here and I'm gonna get a cuppa hot chocolate and go back to my room to try calling Mr Perfect. Miss him bad. Miss all of you. Miss home.

tracking me

2007-11-28T15:28:00.000+08:00

Back from my 5 days leave in Hkg, down with a flu so it wasn't as fun as it should be. How fun can Hkg be if you can't taste the foods and having a leaky nose half the time? But Disneyland made up for it aLOT. Ocean Park was just a whirl of human congestion, long ques and steep slopes. The dolphins and sea lions were cute though. Didn't buy alot of stuff, didn't buy any clothes in fact, which, in itself is a downer. Overall it wasn't what a Hkg vacation should be, but spending time with Mr Perfect: priceless.

My first solo flight was okay. Met some slightly neurotic characters but their pathetic life is not worth a space in mine. So anyways, looking forward to seeing Hamsterdam (925 inside joke)! And get this, I'm doing Frankfurt-New York next month! Woo-hoo!

For everyone's benefit, here's a low down on my whereabouts for the rest of the year.

Dec 07
2nd-3rd Shanghai
5th-9th Amsterdam
11th 925 gathering @ Kuishinbo
12th-14th Adelaide
16th KL turn
17th-18th Jarkarta
20th-21st Standby
23rd-28th Abu Dhabi-Jeddah
31st-1st Bangkok

Jan 08
3rd-4th Bombay
6th-13th Frankfurt-New York
14th-16th OFF

The days in between would be my off days, which means you can ask me out for high teas and manicures! *bimbo giggles*

Oh yes, I'll be spending X'mas in Abu Dhabi (it's somewhere in the Middle East, fyi) and New Year in Bangkok. But hey it's not that bad, I'll be making money instead of spending them on lavish dinners and getting drunk. And you guys better get me nice X'mas prezzies if you want anything from Abu Dhabi. Don't forget there's 12 days of X'mas so technically I can still celebrate X'mas on the 29th AND eve of New Year's Eve on the 30th! We can have lavish dinners and get drunk! Yippee~

Mixed feelings

2007-11-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

In a few hrs time, Batch 925 will be graduating. Super mixed feelings.

Saw some drama today. Drama which made all of us heaved a big sigh of relief. "I'm so glad I'm in 925." Yes, I wouldn't wanna be in any other batch. I will miss you guys so, so much.

Ok, really need to get my beauty sleep now.

2007-11-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.

4. You don't like it when your partner is insecure.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is that both of you can talk about everything and
anything, no secret is kept.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

True? To a certain extent, yes. Try it yourself @ http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

Xtra no more

2007-11-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

Back from Shanghai, my final Supernumerary flight, or SNY as we call it. It simply means I was an extra crew put on the flight to observe and learn how things work. After next Tues, Batch 925 will officially say goodbye to good'ol STC and hello to our very first solo flights.

Now before that happens, congrats to 925's dear God's-gift-to-women Delwyn, the new daddy! His wifey took 4-5 hrs of labour to deliver their cute li'l bundle of joy, Isiah, the day daddy Delwyn was stuck in Seoul. But I'm sure he'll make up for it by showering both mummy and baby with loads of TLC. That's not the only friend of mine who just had a baby, I just found out that one of my Poly schoolmates is a proud mummy too. Oh my, am I in that age already? *shudder*

Have lotsa photos to upload, but the lazy bug strikes again. Yes, I've got time to change to an awesome new skin but no time to upload my beautiful pictures. Bite me. *Chomp*

What do Stars do?

2007-11-01T16:55:00.000+08:00

A philosopher once asked, "Are we human because we gaze at the stars, or do we gaze at them because we are human?"
Pointless, really. "Do the stars gaze back?" Now that's the question.

Packing to go off to Seoul tonight. Just checked the temperature, it's about 10 degrees there now. Yay, my new Mango winter jacket can be put to good use! Before I go, I must tell you to watch Stardust! It's even better than I expected. So very very nice. My favourite part has gotta be Yvaine's monologue, which I am quoting at the end of this post so to avoid the major spoiler, do not read it before you see the movie.

If magic spells, scheming witches and gay captains are not your cup of tea, then you can check out Rendition. Great plot, great acting, and great twist.

So instead of missing me, keep yourselves occupied by catching them ;p

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves...

You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan, is... I think I love you.

Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts, no goods, no demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too.

Just your heart, in exchange for mine." - Yvaine, Stardust

happy halloween

2007-10-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

Celebrated HRH Pwincess Nana's grand birthday on Sat.

Her highness says no cash, no vouchers, and no cake this year . So we got her some mini clothes and heavenly cupcakes from Marmalade Pantry. Then it was off to Zouk's Halloween Night. Saw so many crazy costumes it was well worth the outrageous cover. Only let down was that it had to end prematurely :(

Here's the first ghoulies we met. The graduates of the University of Hell.

Giant teddy bears!

And guess who we caught running around with a magic mushroom?

Maybe he was running away from the S.W.A.T guys?

That's all for now, more photos coming up after Mrs Ribena sends them.

Got my first roster! My very first solo flight is to Melbourne. But Laura will be back in S'pore when I'm there. How great, not. Hopefully the others are still there. Other places I'm looking forward to are Amsterdam and Adelaide.

Alright, time to sleep.

panda-eyed me

2007-10-27T15:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know about you but I've always found pandas so darn cute. No, I'm not finding cute excuses for my dark circles. Anyways, they probably eat bamboo shoots and sleep all day but yet they've got these ridiculous panda eyes ironically associated with losing sleep. Haha...ok, not funny. But check out these funny videos about pandas that I chanced upon.

Goin' down under

2007-10-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

Finally! Peektures~

I only have one photo of my HKG trip in my phone, can you figure out what it is?

Haha, yes they're thongs, and very cute ones indeed. Wawa and I were deliberating whether or not to get them as souvenirs for our batchies. TOo bad they weren't exactly cheap.

Sydney was freaking cold, as in it was really, really chilly. But luckily, we still made the most of our precious one day there. We touched down at 5.55am (yes, AM) and checked into the splendid Hilton Hotel to grab 3 hrs of beauty sleep before heading out to lunch at a local food court. There were so much to gawk at even in the food court itself. Yes, call us sua ku.

Look at all the drool-worthy yummies

A cuppa hot chocolate to keep us warm

Sydney Opera House

You can't really see it here, but the tree on the left is actually a really pretty shade of purple

Darling Harbour, I love that name

Kev and the girls took me to "Pancakes on the Rocks" to have the best pancakes ever

The comfiest hotel bed I've slept on. But the alarm rang at 4am. Shucks.

After touching down in home sweet home, had to whisk off to Fang Lao Shi's concert at The Esplanade. I'm impressed at myself for staying awake even though I'd been up for more than 18hrs. It was overall a show well done, except for a few (too many) technical glitches (esplanade should do something about that sound guy). Her Royal Highness Pwincess Nana, henceforth known as HRHP Nana, looked gorgeously chic in her new bob. It totally rocks, girl! And I always wanted to hear her sing A*mei's "如果你也聽說" which I finally did. Here's her looking like a rockstar and we, her groupies who qued to take pictures with her.

Xue, Ling and Aleste threw Sheen a birthday bbq at ECP yesterday. Happy Birthday, dearie! The jing jang girls were reunited again. Such love. Aleste bought these really lovely mini cupcakes instead of the conventional birthday cake. Great effort, man. Spoil market for the boyfriend himself haha.

Mr Perfect got me a new camera to feed the starving camwhore in me. Thank you so much, dear, I really love it, and I can't wait to start! Say hi to my new Fujifilm Finepix Z5 in pweety pink. Yes I know, it's disgusting, isn't it? My newfound fetish for pink gadgets. But do I care? Ha.

Say pinkies!

back and off again~

2007-10-16T12:21:00.000+08:00

I'm back and ready to set off for Sydney! Gonna be meeting Kev for dinner there tmr night. That man has already tempted me with his "big portions of ang moh food like ribs and steak? or belgian food and german beer?" Make my stomach rumble at 1am in the morning. Hopefully the girls can come too and we can have a nice catch up session.

My first flight was surprisingly breezy. The crew were generally nice. I guess all that talk about bitching and zapping is really overrated. There are bitchy people everywhere and you're not that suay to meet them all the time. But let's just keep our fingers crossed, yeah?

HongKong was good. It's pretty much like how we've seen on tv. The buildings are dark and unkept, the streets are cluttered, people chattering away in cantonese, and not to mention the polluted air haha. The stuff there were not that cheap, in fact the eateries were slightly more pricey. Too bad I couldn't really indulge in the famous food there cos I gotta accomodate my muslim buddy. But its ok, I'll be going there again with Mr Perfect and we can 买东西吃东西，买东西吃东西，买东西吃东西 to our hearts' content!

I really have to start uploading all my photos. *bleah*

Dream a little dream

2007-10-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

It's weird seeing the ppl around you, people who used to share this ridiculous big dreams with you, really realising that dream. And here you are, going in what seems like the complete opposite direction. It's weird. I wish them all the luck in the world and hope to see them reaching the peak of our wildest imaginations. So then at least I can tell people, "hey! that person up there is my friend!"

It's not like I've totally given up on myself. That glimmer of spark is still there, as it always has been, and it will flame up with the slightest hint of fuel. But the question is when.

On a different note, I'll be heading to Seoul and Shanghai in Nov. Kimchi and XiaoLongBao here I come~

Poor, unfortunate souls

2007-10-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

Was tryng to brainstorm with BubblySylz aka Mrs Ribena-berry what we can do this weekend and guess wad we came up with? NOTHING. Are we really that pathetic? Yes, we are. And to add on to that, I'm broke after buying my luggages. which fully explains the title of this post. So if anyone's got any brilliant suggestions that is both fun and economical, pls write in.

No photos yet, too lazy to upload. Bite me.

I'm ready to jump!

2007-09-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Slide jumping is fun. Tmr we're gonna do wet training, which means yours truly here gotta dive into the depths of the 3m pool once again. I'm sure it'll be good, 925 always makes it good.

Went to support the flying angel/mosquito, Missy Alison, on her last day at the gorgeous Divine at Parkview Square. That place is simply breathtaking. The architecture is really a work of art, but too bad the lighting was way too dim to take any good pictures. You really gotta see it for yourself to believe it. Well I did try to invite the whole world. Oh well, your loss.